Today I have a “Certificate of Merit and Appreciation” for completion of treatment wherein I am commended for exhibiting the “highest degree of courage, determination and good nature.”
Today I didn’t have to get up early and drive into the Big City for my treatment.
Today I didn’t have to worry about gas money to get there.
Today I didn’t set the alarm.
This morning it was cool with a light rain, poetically perfect as if ordered to wash away the stress of the last 6 weeks.
Today I am looking forward to some real rest and relaxation instead of stolen moments here and there.
Today I am ready to resume my real life.
Today I have a job I like, even if it pays a pittance, it is a good job and I am not on Unemployment anymore.
Today I calculated my budget through August and we will not get our power shut off, we will have food to eat, and I have a payment arrangement with the radiation clinic.
Today there is the possibility that Leif might actually get his farm and we might have a place to live that is our own.
Today I am looking forward to school.
Today I miss my spud.
Today I feel I’ve made it out of the woods:
Then again, maybe the aliens flipped some switch in my brain and all this is meaningless, and in a minute I’ll step off the curb and remember none of it. But if I write it here, then it will retain some reality for ever.
Happy Friday. May you find a moment of perfect clarity, fresh beginnings and dream realization that has nothing to do with aliens but your own hard work and inner strength.
